I let out a deep breath as I shut the door and head downstairs. It’s 1pm. I have approximately 2 hours, 2.5 if I’m lucky, 1.5 if I’m not, to tame the to-do list into submission. My mind starts spinning.
I have guests coming this weekend and a house to clean.
I have blog posts to write.
Recipes to make.
Photos to shoot, edit.
Social media posts to take care of.
I wouldn’t mind a shower.
Maybe some lunch.
A practice could be nice.
The list seems endless and there is no way I’m going to get even half of it accomplished. I start to feel the wave of dread rising in me. Another day, another list, another failed attempt to tame the to-do list, to knock a few things out before more are added. It’s enough to drive a person crazy.
So what do I do?
I make tea and I sit down. I listen to the clock ticking on the wall. I notice the leaves dancing in the wind. I ask myself how I’m feeling, how I’m doing, without trying to solve my own problems. I get really still.
It might seem counter intuitive but there is power in this stillness.
When you’re constantly operating from a place of need – needing to buy, clean, do, make, accomplish – it always feels like you’re falling behind. The idea that unless we’re constantly moving or doing or scrolling, we aren’t being productive. Somewhere along the way we equated busy with abundance and stillness with scarcity.
Well, I’m here to tell you that you’re just fine and you don’t need to tame the to-do list. It isn’t going to make you a better human being. No one is going to throw you a party when you’ve crossed off the last item. In fact, I’m pretty sure if you wait five minutes ten more items will pop right up for your “doing” pleasure.
So for a moment, consider this…right now, you have everything you need.
You are not lacking.
You are not broken.
You are whole, full.
You are beautiful, capable, smart, rich, talented enough.
Your house is clean enough, your clothes are perfect.
You’ve done all that you need to do.
Just for 5 minutes.
There is nothing you need.
Meditate on this concept of abundance. Then tackle your to-do list. I’ll bet not everything feels nearly as pressing or important now.